Yesterday,we had the best time, suddenly i asked him to break up with me.. I do not know why.. Nothing happen between us, just only because i am depressed .I am feel really awful. From a day to day, a lot of thing i was becoming afraid to face the future. A lot of thing was spinning in my head. I know its might be the wrong decision but if he say yes . I think what ever to be happen, and what i am doing is called 'takdir' . I did. I am really love him and put all effort in our relationship. The problem is, i want our relation is more than it was.A lot of thing we had done together . We need each others . but after i asked him to break, i went to changlun. alone k! I just want to test my self, if i, without him. And the answer is.. i cant .. every where i go, all the memories came.. to much thing we had doing together.. last i was tell him to walking alone after playing volley ball which take time about 30 minute if his walk.. because i want he try to life without me.. but, i cant , so i going to Huski and buy pizza for him.. huhu.. i am really love him..then i took him and we dinner together..;)
and some, i learned how to be patience.. How to manage the relationship because once you are married, all this kind feeling will came, so from now you need learn how to manage and control it.. Living together is so hard.. You need to understand a two of hearts and feelings..Instead, your self cant understand and classified what did you want, and what did you feel ,apatah lagi living together kan?? So, i wish all of you guys try to look before your leap. :) its mean do not act hastily without think the consequence. Thank you.
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